There’s no one that hasn’t experienced some sort of tribulation, strife, or storm in their lives. It’s how we handle each and every storm that matters. It’s times like these that remind us that we aren’t in control and we don’t have all the answers, but God does. We may feel lacking in competency and wonder how things will work out. In some situations, we could feel a state of panic.
We might wonder and say, “I don’t understand, Lord.” “Why?” “Where are you?” “Why is this happening?” “I don’t know what to do next or where to turn.” “Are you angry with me?” “Did I do something wrong?” “I’m devastated, I need to know you’re still with me.”
In December 2015, I was interviewed by Courtney Davis, from WVVA news about the release of my Christian children’s book, “My Secret Place with God.” The book is a true story about my relationship with God as a child. I shared how important the Lord’s presence and love meant to me.
In the interview, I explained that from the ages of three unto six, I had been sexually abused by two different men, who didn’t know each other. My parents had no idea that these things were happening. I was threatened by these two evil men; with one of them telling me that he would kill me! I was scared and I didn’t know what to think or do, as I was only a small child. The storyline in the children’s book is void of these abuses, of course. But, the book was written to spread the name Jesus to give hope to children including those who are being abused.
My saving grace in dealing with these childhood abuses was my complete absolute belief and trust in God! One summer, I had been told in vacation bible school, that the Lord loved me very much! And, that He watched over me and kept His angels watching over me! I believed this with all of my heart! I was also given a plaque at bible school that said, ‘Jesus loves me,’ and the plaque glowed in the dark! It hung above the door in my bedroom, and I could see it glow as I lay in my bed and went to sleep every night. There was power in those three words, and that little plaque forever changed my life!
One night at bedtime, I lay on my side looking at the plaque and talking/praying to Jesus. Suddenly, there was a beautiful purple light that filled the room. I sat up in bed to where the source of the light seemed to come from. At the foot of my bed stood a man whom I knew to be Jesus. I don’t remember His features so much, but I do remember that He glowed in the most beautiful purple light and that His hands were stretched out to me. I remember feeling so happy and I remember smiling at Him! The figure of Jesus dissipated and I lay down again in bed. Suddenly, to the left of the bed were two figures in blue with wings, floating in the air! I knew that these were angels watching over me and I smiled again, falling to sleep. This event was burned into my memory, as it was a divine gift from the Lord!
Some people might offer, why did God allow these abuses to happen? …Why does anything happen?
Since my childhood and until this time period, I’ve experienced spiritual warfare around me in a concentrated way that has helped me understand the discernment of spirits. This is the reality of this world, a battle between goodness and evil. The good news, the storms in my life were temporary and short in the grand scheme of things. Jesus has already defeated death (Satan) at the cross, for “everlasting” life in heaven!
Psalm 107:29 He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still
I’ve had more storms and difficult experiences than I can count within my lifetime, including a divorce, betrayals, and other abuses such as denigration and abandonment. During these times periods, I at times wondered where God was. But, I mostly had faith, as I know that Jesus and heaven are real!
I realized that out of each of these storms, I had learned many lessons, grew in wisdom, gained strength in faith, and developed greater imminence to God. I wouldn’t trade closeness to God for anything!
I thank God for these storms. I am now better qualified to understand how to love God and help His children, in thanks for giving me everlasting life.
1st Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.